Early Life and Formative Beliefs
I experienced my first existential crisis around the age of 15—nearly 50 years ago. I was raised in a typical Christian environment. Both my grandparents were ministers and my parents came from the Bible Belt. As a child, I believed in the teachings I was taught, including the existence of God, the afterlife, and the supernatural. Like most children, I also believed in the tooth fairy and Santa Claus.
Questioning Faith and the Path to Atheism
As I reached the age of reason, I began to question the truth of my early beliefs. I saw a significant descrepency between what I had been taught and what I saw in the world at large. And that really bothered me. So I set out to verify the teachings I had grown up with. But after years of effort and reflection, I failed. I was unable to confirm the existence of Christian God. Or any god. Instead, I concluded that my Christian beliefs were a product of culture.
This realization led me to become an atheist—a natural outcome when one loses belief in the supernatural. But atheism was only the beginning of a longer journey.
The Quest for a Personal Worldview
After realizing I was an atheist, I had to start over and build a new worldview. I wanted to understand reality, meaning, and spirituality on my own terms. This process became a lifelong passion.
Though I’ve spent time working and earning a living, I’ve consistently returned to this inquiry—and especially later in life now that I have more time for reflection. I’ve written extensively, traveled, studied, and thought deeply about these questions. While I don’t have a formal degree, I’ve accumulated over 50 years of practical experience in exploring spirituality and the nature of reality.
Purpose of This Guide
This site is part of my ongoing personal spiritual journey. It serves two main purposes:
1. Personal Growth and Learning
The primary reason for this guide is to deepen my own understanding. Teaching is the best way to learn, and by writing down and orgazining my thoughts, I force myself to clarify, refine, and complete my ideas. This site functions as a digital journal and a record of my spiritual exploration.
2. Sharing with Fellow Seekers
Beyond personal development, I hope to offer value to others on similar paths. I share my writings and research in the hope that they might resonate with readers and support their own spiritual journeys.
I make no claims to expertise, teaching, or authority. I am not a guru or scholar—just one traveler sharing insights gained through lived experience. I invite dialogue, exploration, and mutual learning, not dogma or definitive answers.